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sadden

2005-12-07T02:57:00.000-08:00

i promised not tu leave yoo n i nvr will ((:

haishh..

2005-10-29T01:44:00.000-07:00

haishh. so siannx nahhs. darling went for ard 5 daes liao. den this few daes reallie miss him like siao lorhhs. arghhs. den ytd he msg miie. den he sae wat i dun seems like i got think orf him or my feelings change lorhhs. den i reallie dun believed he'll sae that lorhhs. he dun even knoe how each day pass for miie. den reallie damn sad when i read that larhhs. =[[

yupps. i MISS him ALOT!!!! shitt mann. i'm dying oreadi larhhs. argghs. can't blogg anymore. i'm dead.

R.I.P

PHILANA LOH

PASSED AWAY ON 29 OCT 2005

DAY 3

2005-10-27T23:10:00.000-07:00

miss my darling alot alot alot alot! haiyoo. this few daes feel kinda down norhhs. owaes nth tu do. den kipp walking ard my hse. if not then i'll b lying on the bed slacking for the whole dae. one orf this des reallie become pigg larhhs. ><

daes without him reallie pass very slow lorhhs. mins ish like daes. and daes ish like weeks. now onlie din see him for a few daes onlie but the feeling ish like we're apart for weeks? arghhs. tis ish hell larhhs. i'm dying sooner or later. =[[

den tudae miss heng ask miie tu remind him about going tu sku on wed and fri lorrhs. so i use the chance tu talk tu her. den so happie larhhs. cos she sae he definately wun drop tu NA. phew. so relieved lorhhs. den make miie worry for nth. aiyahh. all his fault larhhs. make miie see his paper. =[[

darling! i miss yoo ALOT!

When it looked as though my life was wrong, you took my love and gave it somewhere to belong.

i love yoo...

DAY 2

2005-10-26T01:03:00.000-07:00

haishh. its been 2 daes since darling went tu beijing liao. miss him damn damn muchh lorhhs. wonder wat's he doin now. and dunnoe whether he got take care of himself nots. =[[ den daes without him reallie vry boring lorhhs. den make miie feel so siann this few daes.

oso nort sure when he cumin back lorhhs. he sae about a week. and when holiday starts lorhhs. but he din even say the day norhhs. miss him so much larhhs! arghh. den this few daes cannot go tu slp lorhhs. i 10 pm lie on bed den the end 12 plus liddat den fall asleep. den spend about 2 hrs lying on the bed thinking orf him and forcing myself tu slp. haishh. sooner or later i'll go crazy larhhs.

i might even miss him too much till i die larhhs. =x few daes later i sure cannot take it liao. yupps. i can't stand it anymore!!!!! arghhh. why of all times must go to holiday now. =[[ he dunn even knoe how much i miss him lorhhs. > <

den tudae wanted tu find miss heng tu talk tu her about him lorrhs. i want tu ask her symthings. but then she was not ard tudae. den wasted my time waiting for her lorhhs. haishh. tmr den find her talk bahss.

kayys. ennd here.

MISS MY HUBBY ALOT ALOT!

DAY 1

2005-10-25T00:43:00.000-07:00

darling went tu beijing last night lerhhs. and i promised him i'll record down how much i miss him during this period of time. =]]

haishh. its like less den 24 hrs since i last chatted wif him norhhs. but den i miss him so much liao. den kipp wondering if he's enjoying himself and whether he gort think of miie nots. haishh. but most importantly ish if he's feeling alrite not lorhhs. cos he was still sick ytd.

at 1st he tot he couldn't go den damn sadd de lorhhs. den i feel so hurt seeing him liddat norhhs. it hurts miie whenever he feel sad or dejected derhs. and i understand how he felt if he couldn't go. but ytd he ignored wat i sae. den make miie feel so sad. i love yoo so much it hurts....

erms. den tudae gort back the results. one word- BAD. yupps. but i wasn't worrying so much for myself. instead i'm sad bout his. i WISHED i din check his paper. neither do i hope i knew his marks. it hurts so badly when i looked at it. i reallie very scared he drop to Na norhhsi dun want him tu give up on himself and neither will i give up on him.. i nearly cry actually.. i dunnoe why.. but i knoe once he drop tu NA, he'll change completely. i reallie vry scared. =[[

darling, no matter wat i'll owaes b wif u. i knoe u tried hard for your SA2 liao. so no matter wats the result.. dun b sad kayys? i din do well myself either. it reallie hurts tu see u sad. so even if u knoe ur results oso must lighten up kayys? dun forget our BIG SMILE. =D

HUBBY,I LOVE YOO!

when can u understand........

2005-10-24T23:50:00.000-07:00

okayys. todae ish a bad dae alrite. dun wanna tok bout it. but wanna let him knoe i reallie DO care. i might not know how to express but still i CARE. can't he understand everything i did for him? the frens i sacrificed.... i dun even think he understands anyway. all he think of ish the bad things i did. wad the fuck lorhhs. whyy can;t i just balanced everything between frens and him. both seems tu b finding fault at miie. yahh. i'm a FAILURE, a LOSER who just can't seems tu get everything rite. but heyys, i'm still a human u knoe? i'm NOT perfect. whyy can't they understand lorhhs. damn depressed now. cried again just now. i feel like giving up everything. i'm reallie tired.. i tot he know.. i tot he understand.. but it turns out tu b wrong.. he dun understand miie. NOONE understands miie.

I HATE MYSELF. nth seems tu b right anymore. its just a illusion.

241005- the dae i think everything turn out wrong, it was a mistake in the beginning...................

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2005-10-24T00:15:00.000-07:00

feel like cutting myself now. numb myself frm all this pain. i used tu think how foolish pple are. but now i understand how they feel........

onlie tu yoo..

2005-10-23T07:12:00.000-07:00

went tu parkway to collect specs. make one for in case lorhhs. yupps. but that person sae not ready yet. last min gortx same problems. haiyoo. nonsense lorhhs. but after that went window shoppin. parkwae ish getting bored for miie. > <

den came home tu change blog skin lorhhs. yupps. den told darling this blog ish specially for him derhs. =] hahaa. yupps. i know i'm the BEST,ya?

end here.

thaa``

LOVE MY HUBBY! =))

interclass games_

2005-10-21T22:45:00.000-07:00

ellos! here tu blogg again. tudae ish a super CRAZY dae. everyone ish CRAZY. hahaas.

yupps. gort the interclass game tudae. the guys played soccer while we played netball. den we girls damn hot mann! we WON all the classes! so we're the champion. hahaas. told yoo i'm not gentle. even suk tan sae she pei fu wo! and yi wo wei rong. hehees. but the guys dun believed we won. =[ they sae ish tyco derhs lorhhs. hahaa. cos they jealous wudd. lose tu the other classes. den sho unlucky larhhs. the ball smack onto my head!! den kip feeling damn giddy. hahaas. but yan ru worst. it hit her nose. hahaa. plus my head hard larhhs. so dun need worry. hehes.

yupps. den we gortx 1 hr break. den yan ru sae she lost 20 dollars lorhhs. dunnoe who will go steal part of the money but not all. haishh. den after that we went back tu class. and i played stress wif Prin! hahaa. and its TOTALLY CRAZY. i kipp screaming. den everyone follow. hahaa. den our class became a zoo.

tudae was rather fun larhhs. but sku ishstill bored without my darling.=[ he's still having high fever lorhhs. haishh. never take care larhhs.

okayy. end here!

thaa``

I MISS MY DARLING!

lalalas``

2005-10-20T01:24:00.000-07:00

lalalas! din go sku tudae! cos was having diarrhoea! > <

den todae darling oso sickk lorhhs. poor thing. he gort high fever. =X make miie sho worry for him larhhs. must get well soon kays! den peiwen oso din go sku. hahas. cos she sae ytd she felt giddy and gort headache. hahas. din noe she nvr go sku until she called miie when i was in der toilet. hahaas. lucky tudae felt better liao. think shudd b able tu go sku tmr lorhhs. budden my shoulder aching like mad in the morning. dunoe whyy suddenly liddat.

haishh. den just now darling suddenly sae he cannot go same class as miie next yr liao. cos he know his results sure damn lan. den still ask miie face the fact. darling! i dunn care! i want u tu go same class as miie lorhhs. n we both knoe if we go into different class we sure slowly grow further apart de lorhhs. n both orf us oso dun wan dat tu happened. haishh. den he next mon going tu beijing liao. den his mum going tu help him get his report b0ok lorhhs.

haiyoo. i reallie dun want us tu go into a different class lorhhs. and 2e3 will oso soon b separated liao.stupid streaming. why must there b streaming lorhhs. and the subject combination so lil onlie. and the choice ish so LIMITED. argh!

think i'll end here larhhs.

thaa``

sickk!

2005-10-18T06:19:00.000-07:00

arghh! was sick the whole dae tudae. ytd i din slp at all lorhh. was feeling damn uncomfortable lorhhs. den went to the toilet a few times to vomit. look so yucky. den 6 plus i went tu watch tee vee downstairs. cos i jus can't get back tu slp. lucky my darling pei miie! =] thx! love yoo sho much!

yupps. den went tu orchard tudae wif my cousin and mum lorrhs. but before that i went tu meet my darling first. cos he oso going orchard. but after that i din sae bye den went tu look for my cousin lerhhs. feel so guilty now. sorry worhhs.

but den i was not in a mood tu shop so we go there for a few hrs onlie. cos i wasn't feeling too well either. i din eat anything for the whole dae lorhhs. cos gort no appetite. sianx. den my stomach damn pain oso lorhhs.

den when we were walkin tu somerset mrt a woman suddenly approach me. den she suddenly sae they lookin for model wif fresh face to appear in a magazine. den asked for my contact and blah blah blah. she saes will call miie up for the audition. but guess i'm not going larhhs.

haish.. veri tired now.. think i'll end here now..

thaa``

darling! sorry for treating u so cold tudae, cos wasn't feeling well tudae. =[

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2005-10-15T05:02:00.000-07:00

heyloos. time for miie tu blogg again. nth much happened tudae though. just the usual boringg dae.

i went tu swimming in the afternoon and the sun was damn bloody hot. and i could feel my whole body burning mann. but luckily enough i went into the pool after that. hahaa. funny thing ish.. i DIN got tanned. thats not fairr. i'm trying my best tu be tanned!

yupps. den reach home at about 7 plus liddat lorhhs. then had oysters for dinner. and guess wud? i ate ALOT. now i feel so sick lorhhs. thats wudd i get for being greedy =.=

i miss my darling alot now lorhhs. darling.. sorry for doubting yoo.. > <>

okay larrhs. shall end here!

thaa``
darling i miss yoo!

blahs``

2005-10-14T22:00:00.000-07:00

heyloos. yupp. i've moved my blogg again. and its for the err.. 3rd time? dunnoe whyy just feel like creating a new blog cos i'm sick orf the old one. XP

things arent great tis few days though. was rather stressed up by those damn exams. well, thank goodness today ish the last paper. MATHS really does make one MAD. today's maths is hell mann. so freakin difficult. guess i'll flunk. =[

yupps. things arent going well for both orf us either. oso dunnoe wud happened lorhs. things werent like this before.. guess both orf us are too stressed up by the exams bahs. and he said he'll change after the exams. hahaas. make sure he do it larhhs. =D

haish. g0in swimming tmr againn.. yikes! my legg ish getting stiffer mann. can kicked pple reallie hard now. hahas. watch it pple! *grins*

guess i'll end here. i'm bored!!

thaa``

iiLOVE my darling!